that's it...maybe

Well I've reached that point...the same point I have reached many of time before. I've become fed up with myself. I don't know if it's ever happened to you...but all of a sudden you think "man, I'm just ______" You fill in the blank...could be slob, lazy, out of touch...etc and etc. The moment came in small doses to me all day. My hair for no apparent reason (I have doctors appointments to rule out medical) decided to go alfalfa on me. From one day to the next it took on the texture of a really bad dried out old lady roller set hairdo. So I got fed up and cut it all off...OH, I hate it....the cut looks terrible, but I couldn't stand the feel of it anymore.

Then this evening watching Indiana Jones 3 (fun movie...just plain fun) it happened again. I got fed up with myself...it came on with my 2nd bite of pie. The pie was suddenly gross...I kept thinking that me just not giving a shit about what I eat or what I weigh was gross & I was grossing myself out. I tossed the pie and got a glass of water...

So here I am overweight and with a very bad haircut wondering if the feeling will pass by morning or if it's enough this time to push me into action. I became fed up this week with school and bounced into action applying for financial aid and getting an appointment to get my paperwork together to enter SDSU..it's time I thought. Yup, it's time I went from Taco Tec to Taco U...the fed up worked.

So am I there with my weight? I hit this fed up with my weight once and lost 50 pounds...I think I'm there...the pie tasted nasty tonight, trick is to see if it tastes nasty tomorrow. The hair well it will grow, but what if it grows out the same what then? The schooling well Taco U either takes me or I keep applying till they take me....

Perhaps we are all creatures of bad habits the trick is to recognize them as bad habits and not just habits.